One thing I always told myself while pregnant was to 'not complain about being pregnant'! Why would I try for over a year, pay thousands of dollars for fertility aids and specialist, grow a stock pile of "How to get knocked-up" type books, start collecting OPKs and EPTs, have a thermometer, graphs and and a calender as my night stands newest decor- only to complain about the outcome. I never understood why woman would try so hard to get pregnant to only complain about it when they finally were knocked up. Well, I admit- I had my moments of complaining. Being pregnant is hard! It sure is beautiful but damn- in reality- it aint pretty! You bleed, you cramp, your boobs are sore, you puke, you swell, your crotch hurts, your back aches, you can't see your feet let alone bend far enough to even touch them anymore. You spend more money in co-payments at the doctors then you do at the grocery store that month. And don't get me started on the stretch marks! They just aren't on your tummy- you get stretch marks in places you could never imagine! You hate sex but yet you get depressed when your husband turns you down. You have to buy a new wardrobe every month (there's a few 'pros' about that don't get me wrong). You establish your "favorite shirt of the month" 'cause by the following month, that once cute preggo shirt doesn't cover up your 'oh so expanding belly. Those high heels in your closet? Yea- they now have an inch of dust on them 'cause you can't even get your toes past the arch of the shoe. Say goodbye to Victoria Secret- those days are long gone lady! Oh- and bikinis? yea right! The only bikini style anything I'm wearing is "bikini style granny panties" I have learned to like that you buy in bags at Walmart. Again- goodbye Vicky. Lets talk about the comments "Oh, your getting huge!" Yea...okay- I understand I'm pregnant but can you not tell me how huge I really look? I mean, I'm already feeling like a massive hippopotamus on parade. And quick touching my belly- your getting my shirt dirty. I hated laying 'comfortably' in bed after 15 mins or so tossing side to side with my gigantic body pillow in between my legs to only realize I now have to pee. Then its a race to see if I can actually get out of bed fast enough without peeing my pants. Oh Pregnancy, how I wanted you so bad. Yes, I got a beautiful baby out of it but goodness- "The Baby" is now a whole other chapter....don't get me started on how blissful it is to have a precious newborn. I've never been so tired, stressed and frustrated in my life!
Woo...okay- that felt great to get all that out! I must also say though- being pregnant was the most amazing feeling ever. To wake up each morning to my growing belly and my sweet child inside me, knowing I was creating the next generation in my very own body, that I beat the odds the doctors gave me, that I in fact- would be called Mommy sooner then later - is surreal! Those days that I got to see my sweet son on screen, to see his toes that I created, to see him move his arms and legs and feel them at the same time, to know that he was mine were some of the best days of my life. I remember as a little girl, stuffing pillows underneath my barbie pajama top and pretending and imagining what it would be like to be pregnant. I had lists of names picked out since I was 10. I even started collecting baby things when I met my husband for I knew, having a baby was on the list. Being pregnant was what I had worked for, dreamed for, hoped for and wished for. Being pregnant in all do respect- Amazing! To be the only one to really feel him moving, the first one to really bond with the little person, to know that I was the key to his life and to already love someone whom I've never met is priceless.
Now that I sit here, my stomach only filled with tonight's dinner, I sit and think about my pregnancy journey. I already miss my swelling feet, the mornings that I couldn't get out of bed without puking, the random people at Walmart that would ask "When are you due", the doctors apts, seeing my round belly in my shadow on the sidewalk, the days that I needed my husbands help just to get up off the couch, the anticipation of what to expect, and the love you feel for someone who can fit in the palm of your hand.
Pregnancy is truly Amazing. You may hate it at first, but once its over and you see the beautiful masterpiece you created, you'll want to do it all over again.
Woo...okay- that felt great to get all that out! I must also say though- being pregnant was the most amazing feeling ever. To wake up each morning to my growing belly and my sweet child inside me, knowing I was creating the next generation in my very own body, that I beat the odds the doctors gave me, that I in fact- would be called Mommy sooner then later - is surreal! Those days that I got to see my sweet son on screen, to see his toes that I created, to see him move his arms and legs and feel them at the same time, to know that he was mine were some of the best days of my life. I remember as a little girl, stuffing pillows underneath my barbie pajama top and pretending and imagining what it would be like to be pregnant. I had lists of names picked out since I was 10. I even started collecting baby things when I met my husband for I knew, having a baby was on the list. Being pregnant was what I had worked for, dreamed for, hoped for and wished for. Being pregnant in all do respect- Amazing! To be the only one to really feel him moving, the first one to really bond with the little person, to know that I was the key to his life and to already love someone whom I've never met is priceless.
Now that I sit here, my stomach only filled with tonight's dinner, I sit and think about my pregnancy journey. I already miss my swelling feet, the mornings that I couldn't get out of bed without puking, the random people at Walmart that would ask "When are you due", the doctors apts, seeing my round belly in my shadow on the sidewalk, the days that I needed my husbands help just to get up off the couch, the anticipation of what to expect, and the love you feel for someone who can fit in the palm of your hand.
Pregnancy is truly Amazing. You may hate it at first, but once its over and you see the beautiful masterpiece you created, you'll want to do it all over again.
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