Mothers day

Mothers day was special. I woke up next to my sleeping baby and the father of my miracle and all I could do was smile. Today was my first Mothers day. I picked up my sleeping baby and held him close to my heart. I took in every breath he gave, smelled his sweet skin and touched his soft skin. I have waited so long to celebrate today as my own day.

My sweet husband bought me a charm bracelet that held charms pertaining to 'us' - Remis birth stone, my birth stone, a little boy figure, my favorite animal, a star, and our initials. It is so beautiful. My sister made me a dazzling necklace that has a charm in which hangs Remis initial "R". And my Mom put together a video montage of "Remi" and his first moments on earth. It is so wonderful! Here is the video on youtube
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I also found this poem that touched my heart -


"Before I was a Mom -"

I slept as late as I wanted and never worried about how late I got into bed. I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.

Before I was a Mom -

I cleaned my house each day. I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby. I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous. I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom -

I had never been puked on - Pooped on - Spit on - Chewed on, or Peed on. I had complete control of my mind and My thoughts. I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom -

I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests...or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom -

I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life

so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom -

I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important.

Before I was a Mom -

I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known The warmth, The joy, The love, The heartache, The wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom